Any good news? Anything to celebrate?
Aug. 6th, 2015 09:58 amI was about to post another not-very-happymaking post and decide I'd rather hear if there's some good stuff going on in other people's lives.
Things aren't great in my life - I'm having a multi-day mood crash, and I *think* I'm doing all the right stuff to avoid it, but it's happening anyway. Okay, the thing is, if I write about it, that helps me wallow. I'm not sure about this, but it seems to me that *talking* out pain usually helps, but *writing* it isn't as helpful for me. It might be a more general thing too... I don't mean one shouldn't write about pain, I just mean, I think there needs to be care about not digging in deeper. Any mood seems to be vulnerable to being dug into.
So: What's going on good in your life? Besides
ladysprite doing some amazing stuff in silks!. I mean, you can mention it and all, but I've already seen it :-).
Things aren't great in my life - I'm having a multi-day mood crash, and I *think* I'm doing all the right stuff to avoid it, but it's happening anyway. Okay, the thing is, if I write about it, that helps me wallow. I'm not sure about this, but it seems to me that *talking* out pain usually helps, but *writing* it isn't as helpful for me. It might be a more general thing too... I don't mean one shouldn't write about pain, I just mean, I think there needs to be care about not digging in deeper. Any mood seems to be vulnerable to being dug into.
So: What's going on good in your life? Besides
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Date: 2015-08-07 02:43 am (UTC)My horizons are pretty small, these days, as I'm not getting out much while recovering. But:
I am recovering, and apparently doing pretty well at it, too. We're getting ready to cut the morphine in half, again. in a week or so, so that's a good thing. Otherhow, I have a seemingly endless supply of Diet Vernor's, which tastes of home, and helps keep my stomach settled, given the meds, and I've a purring MoxieCat languidly bathing next to me on a pillow.
Sorry t' hear about the multi-day mood crash. Judith (whom you haven't met,) once told me I do black depression better than anyone she's ever met (no, this isn't a competition, I'm just saying,) and the only unsolicited advice I could possibly offer is that, for me, the only thing which works is to be mindful that it's finite, and keep slogging on through the swamp until it lifts. Sitting down in the mud and crying (which I'm not suggesting you're doing, here,) tends to look attractive, but eventually one's left with the realization that one's cried-out, has a wet, muddy ass, and still has the rest of the swamp to slog through.
Well, that's my philosophy, anyhow. I've also had success with noticing I'm falling into one of them and adjusting my trajectory through them, so that I hammer through it hard and fast. Definitely not for everyone, though.
In any case, I'll cease with the well-meant advice you didn't ask for in the first place. I'm sorry to hear you're down. May your days be brighter, soon.
You're good people. Remember that, eh? Be well.
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Date: 2015-08-06 11:24 pm (UTC)Huh. Most of my talking actually *is* online, wibbling on the very private IRC group, or to a few others in FB chat. On the other paw, there are only two or three people I actually talk to very much, people I'm willing to call. (Aside: I've *always* been phone-phobic, except in work situations; I've even worked temp jobs as a receptionist, and had no problems. My brain wiring is just plain *weird*.)
I don't post much of anything any more, even on FB, because there's really nothing new except higher pain levels, fewer spoons, yadda yadda, and I've still got that early conditioning that says one is not supposed to complain about, or even *mention* it, when things aren't going perfectly.
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So: good things? (I can't get lj-cut to work, nor is the link to my project page on Ravelry. The links to Herrschners, of course, work. Aaaarrrrgggghhhh.
I didn't mean to write an entire novella. *wry*"
--> I've gotten a few cherry tomatoes from the plant in the top of that very broken strawberry pot. Sweet 100s. omnomnomnom.
--> I... have been doing a *lot* of crocheting - four afghans completed since early February, a fifth 90% done, a sixth about 3/4 done... and started another a couple of days ago, to try out a different pattern.##
--> The Hannah-cat's diabetes seems to be much more under control. (Ye ghods, needles for the cat twice a day? She sometimes complains a bit when the needle goes in, but she'll snuggle and purr afterwards, so I *know* she's feeling better.)
--> I've got an appointment on the 27th at Bainbridge Arts and Crafts for their jury of artists to look at a selection of my beadstuff and decide whether or not they'll accept it on consignment at the gallery. I need to swap out some base metal clasps for sterling or silver-plate. Will be gnawing on my fingernails. I don't expect to actually get in - they're very high end - but just sticking my neck out a bit to try is A. Big. Deal.
--> Have had good news from some people elsenet that I can't share, but it felt as though a small weight I'd been carrying, without even realizing it, suddenly vanished. I seem to be good at worrying about people I care about, even if they're only peripheral to my world, y'know?
##(If the ravelry link requires a sign-in, I'll put a couple/few of the pics up on Picasa or Flickr or something like that.)
The deal for some of them is "you buy the yarn, here are the links to the evil supplier that is Herrschners, each stripe takes about 4 ounces and I usually make 14 stripes, other dimension is about 6' (hey, I'm tall, I want something that tucks in under my shoulders and toes! :) solid colors; and multicolored yarns
I prefer to have at least four colors, which I'll use randomly, unless someone wants something *not* random. I can happily do solid colors - I've made myself two stoles/shawls/raps.
Not that I'm hinting or anything, but if some yarn made it over here, there'd be an afghan making its way back to you in about two months
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Date: 2015-08-06 11:35 pm (UTC)Like: if we *always* comment on each other's LJ, then a post is me talking to you. But if you may or may not respond, then writing about my pains is just reminding myself of them - you see?
So, I don't mean to suggest that "talking" online is less useful, or that using one's fingers instead of one's mouth changes things. I was thinking more about the difference between discussing and essaying.
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Date: 2015-08-06 11:38 pm (UTC)(Dear ghods, I've been online for >20 years now; 22 if I count the BBS. That's... a third of my life.)
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Date: 2015-08-08 04:17 pm (UTC)I'm glad to hear about Hannah, both the better health and the lack of needle trauma.
And I'm really glad to hear you're willing to take a chance with your beadwork. You're right, just trying *is* a big deal.
(I couldn't find the ravelry links - did they get dropped?)
And I might take you up on that afghan offer - it'd be lovely to have something like that.
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Date: 2015-08-06 11:31 pm (UTC)https://www.pinterest.com/mask1905/elizabeth-bishop-poems-illustrated/
I hope things will be looking up for you soon, John.
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Date: 2015-08-11 04:18 am (UTC)Yeah, she'll be 13 next month.
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