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johnpalmerSo, Friday, after working six hours saying over and over, "last day - I can rest all day tomorrow" I learned that... whoops. They had to schedule everyone for 2 weekends for the next several months, and mine was coming up... tomorrow. I was supposed to be at home today.
Saturday was an 11 hour workday. Ye gods and little fishies.
Sunday was a nice, very light day, which is good - I was at the "I can react, but I have no act-ability". Go ahead - tell me there's a tough problem in SQL Server, I'll dig into it and figure out how to fix it. Tell me to "manage my cases" and I can't. I stare blankly. I know, technically, I should open case one and take action, then case 2, and so forth. But it doesn't happen.
This is what I think of when I say I'm mentally fatigued. I'm still a genius - but it's like my mental muscles are completely strained. They still work fine, if called upon, but they don't want to do any work.
("I'm still a genius" - no humility problems here, eh? Well - I am. I don't like to think of where I'd be without that as an advantage. My brother died early *in spite* of it because addiction issues derailed college for him.)
Anyway - a few days back, I found that there's a bunch of seasons of new Star Trek episodes, and they've got Professor X playing the captain, Jean-Luc Picard. And they've got some guy who I swear could be Wil Wheaton's kid brother playing a brainy kid who I bet a lot of people could find really annoying.
They've got the guy from Reading Rainbow, I think - he's got some kind of eyepiece that obscures his face a bit.
Best of all, they have this Klingon - you wouldn't believe it, they have the guy who did the voice for I Am Weasel!
So I've been watching this while my brain relaxes a bit.
Saturday was an 11 hour workday. Ye gods and little fishies.
Sunday was a nice, very light day, which is good - I was at the "I can react, but I have no act-ability". Go ahead - tell me there's a tough problem in SQL Server, I'll dig into it and figure out how to fix it. Tell me to "manage my cases" and I can't. I stare blankly. I know, technically, I should open case one and take action, then case 2, and so forth. But it doesn't happen.
This is what I think of when I say I'm mentally fatigued. I'm still a genius - but it's like my mental muscles are completely strained. They still work fine, if called upon, but they don't want to do any work.
("I'm still a genius" - no humility problems here, eh? Well - I am. I don't like to think of where I'd be without that as an advantage. My brother died early *in spite* of it because addiction issues derailed college for him.)
Anyway - a few days back, I found that there's a bunch of seasons of new Star Trek episodes, and they've got Professor X playing the captain, Jean-Luc Picard. And they've got some guy who I swear could be Wil Wheaton's kid brother playing a brainy kid who I bet a lot of people could find really annoying.
They've got the guy from Reading Rainbow, I think - he's got some kind of eyepiece that obscures his face a bit.
Best of all, they have this Klingon - you wouldn't believe it, they have the guy who did the voice for I Am Weasel!
So I've been watching this while my brain relaxes a bit.
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Date: 2015-04-28 02:09 am (UTC)And I'm glad that impostor syndrome as to brains isn't one of your issues!
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Date: 2015-04-29 02:29 am (UTC)