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johnpalmerSo, Sunday, I made the horrible mistake of walking 3 miles on the treadmill, and was exhausted and felt lousy on Monday. That wasn't really the horrible mistake - trying to exercise gently is a reasonable mistake, and I was just walking.
No, the horrible mistake was doing it while having lousy memory flashbacks of an ex- who's memories have been hounding me.
She was the only one who actually made me feel damaged - broken. The one who made me ask whether I should just stop any form of dating.
Don't mix risk of depression with already depressing obsessions...
But I got through Monday, and I got through today, and things started to improve. So I hope tomorrow will be better still. I hope so. It's been a sucky couple of weeks.
No, the horrible mistake was doing it while having lousy memory flashbacks of an ex- who's memories have been hounding me.
She was the only one who actually made me feel damaged - broken. The one who made me ask whether I should just stop any form of dating.
Don't mix risk of depression with already depressing obsessions...
But I got through Monday, and I got through today, and things started to improve. So I hope tomorrow will be better still. I hope so. It's been a sucky couple of weeks.
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Date: 2014-11-20 11:07 pm (UTC)Glad you got through the day, however, and that things were starting to look brighter.
As to the lousy memory flashbacks? Yeah. I know that one. Ghosts can be difficult to banish, sometimes. Here's hoping that you manage to lay them to rest, permanently, in the near future. I've met you, in person. You're good people. Remember that, eh?
You deserve happiness, man. No matter how elusive it may be at present. take care, eh?
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