Feeling out of control - not exactly guilty

[johnpalmer]

Okay, I think I'm on the cusp. Saturday I had an upswing, then a downswing, and now I think I'm on an upswing again, and I want to gently fan the flame until it's well kindled.

This is weird stuff. It's like depression, only magnified and compressed. It's really easy to find one's self feeling bad, and losing a day, and then a few, without recognizing the problem is starting up and catching it and taking action. The good news is, the action is mostly resting. The bad news is, it seems like the difference between "resting and getting better" and "not quite resting and getting worse" can be really tiny. And once things are going wrong, just like with depression, it's easy to forget that you *can* feel better.

Here's hoping. I'd love to make a DW/LJ post that wasn't a health update! (I might tonight, anyway. I have some thoughts that have been brewing.)

Comments

[dubhain]

I don't know what to say, so I'll just say that I wish you well.

Take care, eh?

[klwalton.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you. And I *hear* you.

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

Just keep resting and taking care of yourself, 'kay?

[ftemery.livejournal.com]

I'm with you. I know I often guess wrong on whether I have the energy to do what I think I want to do any given day. I've been pushing it lately - balance is difficult.