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So, today, when I went out jogging, I asked myself how far I could jog. I'd been doing one to four minutes of fast or slow jogging, with a minute of rest between each. I wanted to know how long I could run if I went easy on myself and just jogged slowly as long as I wasn't dying.

I made 17 minutes... I kind of set that as a goal, and I would have quit after 15 if I hadn't. The last hundred seconds weren't quite agony, but they were the completely there. Maybe you know how it goes: "come on, just 79 more seconds, don't think of the time, okay only 77 more seconds STOP THINKING ABOUT okay, 75 more...."

Not quite that bad... but only because I refused to look at my watch.

(Oh, yeah... math guy here... I do conversions to seconds and hundreds of seconds to give me a way of thinking about it as a percentage. It works as well as anything else.)

Other new: I discovered that love is not an omnipotent mood elevator. I had a day of depression, probably caused by too much boredom and a little bit of tiredness. My newlove and I seem to be pretty disgustingly happy together, and it's wonderful... but she was out of contact for a few days when I was tired, and, I dunno... it was like my brain said "it can't be this good, you know. Something is going to go terribly wrong now!"

The thing is, nothing can go terribly wrong. There are things that can go 'wrong' in a sense. We could break off the romantic/sexual part of the relationship... but that, while it could be 'wrong', isn't "terribly wrong".

Still...
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So, today, when I went out jogging, I asked myself how far I could jog. I'd been doing one to four minutes of fast or slow jogging, with a minute of rest between each. I wanted to know how long I could run if I went easy on myself and just jogged slowly as long as I wasn't dying.

I made 17 minutes... I kind of set that as a goal, and I would have quit after 15 if I hadn't. The last hundred seconds weren't quite agony, but they were the completely there. Maybe you know how it goes: "come on, just 79 more seconds, don't think of the time, okay only 77 more seconds STOP THINKING ABOUT okay, 75 more...."

Not quite that bad... but only because I refused to look at my watch.

(Oh, yeah... math guy here... I do conversions to seconds and hundreds of seconds to give me a way of thinking about it as a percentage. It works as well as anything else.)

Other new: I discovered that love is not an omnipotent mood elevator. I had a day of depression, probably caused by too much boredom and a little bit of tiredness. My newlove and I seem to be pretty disgustingly happy together, and it's wonderful... but she was out of contact for a few days when I was tired, and, I dunno... it was like my brain said "it can't be this good, you know. Something is going to go terribly wrong now!"

The thing is, nothing can go terribly wrong. There are things that can go 'wrong' in a sense. We could break off the romantic/sexual part of the relationship... but that, while it could be 'wrong', isn't "terribly wrong".

Still...
(LJ Cut line for talk about alternative sexuality)
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I posted a story about my feelings about Anna/Maenad's death. I had this image that just couldn't be denied, and when my instincts tell me to use something like that, they're usually right. It was posted to the newsgroup alt.callahans.

I'm not sure if anyone not in Callahans cares to read this, but if anyone does, well, here it is to read. (Unedited, I'm afraid, and there are some tense-changes (past and present getting mingled) that should have been edited, but, oh well.)
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I posted a story about my feelings about Anna/Maenad's death. I had this image that just couldn't be denied, and when my instincts tell me to use something like that, they're usually right. It was posted to the newsgroup alt.callahans.

I'm not sure if anyone not in Callahans cares to read this, but if anyone does, well, here it is to read. (Unedited, I'm afraid, and there are some tense-changes (past and present getting mingled) that should have been edited, but, oh well.)
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