an interesting set of thoughts
May. 8th, 2009 09:08 amA while back, I was thinking about tracking states of mind. If a mind is centered, that's one state, if it's bouncing around, that's another, if it's hard to move (you have a hard time focusing on anything, or thinking about anything), that's a third.
The past few days, I've been realizing there's a similar thing to consider about emotions. I'd been emotionally disconnected earlier in the week. I wasn't depressed (which is one of the times when I'm most frequently disconnected), but I just wasn't particularly feeling anything.
And I was wondering if that's similar to a thinking state... akin to one's brain being tired/hard to move, versus emotionally stable, versus emotionally hypersensitive.
(Maybe not. That's a risky road to go down... equating thinking states and emotional states. But there might still be some use to the model.)
But I also realized that it's possible to disconnect from one's body, or from one's emotions, or from one's conscious thoughts, and none of those things are likely to be happy/healthy states to be in.
(Herm. I'm not saying that they're bad states to be in, necessarily, more that they're a sign of something is wrong. A person in chronic pain might try to pull away from their body as much as possible, and that might be a reasonable thing to do. But that level of disconnecting happens because there's another problem - the chronic pain.)
The past few days, I've been realizing there's a similar thing to consider about emotions. I'd been emotionally disconnected earlier in the week. I wasn't depressed (which is one of the times when I'm most frequently disconnected), but I just wasn't particularly feeling anything.
And I was wondering if that's similar to a thinking state... akin to one's brain being tired/hard to move, versus emotionally stable, versus emotionally hypersensitive.
(Maybe not. That's a risky road to go down... equating thinking states and emotional states. But there might still be some use to the model.)
But I also realized that it's possible to disconnect from one's body, or from one's emotions, or from one's conscious thoughts, and none of those things are likely to be happy/healthy states to be in.
(Herm. I'm not saying that they're bad states to be in, necessarily, more that they're a sign of something is wrong. A person in chronic pain might try to pull away from their body as much as possible, and that might be a reasonable thing to do. But that level of disconnecting happens because there's another problem - the chronic pain.)
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Date: 2009-05-08 05:36 pm (UTC)I'm tempted to think that emotional process happens in a different timeframe than intellectual process. That glandular secretions take longer to flush out of the system than rational thoughts.
Using a crude machine metaphor, the 'thinking' that happens in a glandular system sets the modes for the more ephemeral nerve-system thinking. And the memories we have easiest access to in a particular emotional state will be different from those in another emotional state.
When I'm in a dissociated state, it's what I imagine a whiteout condition feels like in the arctic. Having to move with no sensory cues to navigate by. Only in my head, it's the emotional version of kinesthetics that are impacted. I don't have an emotional tone to tell me how I should be feeling about these thoughts I'm thinking.
The survival value for this condition escapes me, except maybe for extreme stress conditions where we can't even afford to feel anything about the stuff our brain has got to process. But I think there's a whole lot of occult emotional trauma, (occult as in hidden, like occult blood) that can't be spoken aloud in polite company.
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Date: 2009-05-13 05:10 am (UTC)Today was one of those days that reminded me of a good reason I'd have for pulling away from emotional responses, alas.
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Date: 2009-05-13 05:28 am (UTC)That sounds unpleasant. :-(