So tomorrow's the day my life changes...

[johnpalmer]

Sounds a bit melodramatic, I suppose, but it's true. Either they find something and can fix it, and things get better, or they don't, and I have a really big mystery on my hands.

Either way, things are changing.

I'm feeling oddly confident, like this is the way things should be going - like this is the proper ending to a chapter of my life and the beginning of another.

I hope I don't have the opportunity to look back on this cockeyed optimism and feel bad about it :-).

There's always a chance, you know - always a chance that things go wrong.

What would I like to say, in the event that such a one in a million shot happens?

Well... I love you. Each and every one of you. Yes, you, that random person who clicked on a link someone posted to this article - even though I don't know anything about you. But to those of you I do know, well, it's a bit more real.

One of the great tragedies of my life is that I don't always have the energy to know precisely why I love you, that I don't have the ability to see the wonder and power that is in each and every one of you. But I know it's there - and the failure is that I can't see it, and I do feel sometimes that it's a failure, not merely a lack. It's one I hope to correct.

Here's the thing, though: you're there all the time, to observe and feel and understand what it's like from the inside - and it would be more than a mere tragedy if you couldn't see it, that wonder, that power; if you couldn't get even a good glimpse of it, couldn't find even the merest spark to cherish, and slowly fan into a flame.

Look for it; it's there. And find it and cherish it and be it.

Comments

[desert_dragon]

best wishes and goodthoughts and lots of ~hugs~

[onyxlynx]

*hug*

Some of us love you for precisely that ability to see wonder and power.

[dubhain]

Best of luck to you, and sincerest hopes that everything goes as well as possible.

You're good people. I'm pulling for you.

[glinda-w.livejournal.com]

*hugs, and GoodThoughts, and love returned*

[bkwrrm-tx.livejournal.com]

**hugs**

**more hugs**

Good thoughts are going your way. I love you, too.

[eleri.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

"Either they find something and can fix it, and things get better, or they don't, and I have a really big mystery on my hands they'll need to do more tests."

Fixed that for you :-D

And I love you, too...

[gingicat]

Wishing you well, and you're dear to me too.

[iamjw.livejournal.com]

*hugs* GoodThoughts on the way. *hugs again*

[ladysprite.livejournal.com]

I hope that things go smoothly today, that they find an answer, and that it's something that can be treated easily and with minimal stress.

I love you too.

[kightp.livejournal.com]

Despite my rare visits to LJ, darlin', you know how I feel. I love you, now and always...

[elainegrey.livejournal.com]

Light and love, wonder and awe to you, too.

[klwalton.livejournal.com]

Holding you in my heart, and holding hope for *good* things.

[anisoptera.livejournal.com]

Thinking Good Thoughts for you today.

[ljgeoff.livejournal.com]

I've been away from the 'net and so didn't post my well-wishes in time for you to see them. <3 I hope all is well with you; my thoughts are with you.