If you don't understand the subject by the end of the update, you won't, and don't worry... it'd be obvious if you were supposed to.
Because I control me... and no one else does.
Because I mean it. Because I really don't see a point in anyone being unwell. Because I wanted to say "you can't hurt me" in a way that was clear, and it *WOULD* hurt me if I wished another person ill. And because I knew that I could make the words "you can't hurt me" true, but for a brief period of recentering and regrounding myself.
Because, as I pondered what to do, I found the Tao... the way, the natural flow of things, and knew that opposing anger with anger would only mean more anger.
For many reasons.
Maybe "you can't hurt me" was fibbing; maybe not. It hurt.
But I don't hurt any longer. And I think I did the right thing.
John Palmer, once again ready to wrestle with a lion, or a grizzly bear; it's my life, baby, but, I don't care.
Because I control me... and no one else does.
Because I mean it. Because I really don't see a point in anyone being unwell. Because I wanted to say "you can't hurt me" in a way that was clear, and it *WOULD* hurt me if I wished another person ill. And because I knew that I could make the words "you can't hurt me" true, but for a brief period of recentering and regrounding myself.
Because, as I pondered what to do, I found the Tao... the way, the natural flow of things, and knew that opposing anger with anger would only mean more anger.
For many reasons.
Maybe "you can't hurt me" was fibbing; maybe not. It hurt.
But I don't hurt any longer. And I think I did the right thing.
John Palmer, once again ready to wrestle with a lion, or a grizzly bear; it's my life, baby, but, I don't care.
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Date: 2002-12-15 11:02 pm (UTC)I think I know what you're talking about, and I think you did, too.
If I'm mistaken about the subject, well, trust your instincts; if you don't hurt, chances are you did do the right thing.
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Date: 2002-12-16 01:58 am (UTC)You know where I am if you need me.
Gesi
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Date: 2002-12-17 08:34 am (UTC)It's just you have to reaffirm... relapse... reaffirm... relapse... oh... fuckem... die, damned well die... reaffirm... relapse
Time... and the river.