Re: the previous posting...
Just in case anyone is wondering... yes, of course I'm too fucking stupid to give up, even when it feels hopeless, and even when it seems hopeless. That's part of what makes me who I am.
Of course, in a day or two, I should be re-wording that as "too tough to quit", rather than "too stupid to give up". But you know, it's days like this, when doing what I know I have to do to keep my sanity, that I realize that I may never know which one is right. Too stupid to realize it's hopeless, or too tough to give up? Either one has reasons for belief, you know.