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johnpalmer) wrote2007-04-07 12:21 pm
johnpalmer) wrote2007-04-07 12:21 pm
Weird realizations...
I'm on half-paychecks for two weeks because of my recent vacation. Yesterday, I had a startling moment.
I was getting worried about my checking account balance getting low... it had a certain dollar amount in it, and I needed to buy incidental stuff. You know, whatever food isn't available in the house, whatever stuff I run out of that I need, etc..
And then I realized that there were times in not-too-distant memory when I'd have been satisfied having that much for a *month*. I was concerned about having that much for a *week*.
And, okay, next week I get a half-paycheck, but that might cover my current bills, and have some left over. So, that much for as long as *two* weeks. And, yeah, gas is expensive; it used to be that $10 would fill my tank, and now it might take $30.
Still...
And I'm carrying a small balance on one credit card, which means I should wait *a whole month* before considering buying a new PC and a 19" flatscreen monitor. Oh, neither will be top of the line, but both will be decent.
And it's just strange, I don't think I ever realized I'd stepped away from being terrified about money, to feeling extremely comfortable, where even my current worries are things that seemed blessings before.
I was getting worried about my checking account balance getting low... it had a certain dollar amount in it, and I needed to buy incidental stuff. You know, whatever food isn't available in the house, whatever stuff I run out of that I need, etc..
And then I realized that there were times in not-too-distant memory when I'd have been satisfied having that much for a *month*. I was concerned about having that much for a *week*.
And, okay, next week I get a half-paycheck, but that might cover my current bills, and have some left over. So, that much for as long as *two* weeks. And, yeah, gas is expensive; it used to be that $10 would fill my tank, and now it might take $30.
Still...
And I'm carrying a small balance on one credit card, which means I should wait *a whole month* before considering buying a new PC and a 19" flatscreen monitor. Oh, neither will be top of the line, but both will be decent.
And it's just strange, I don't think I ever realized I'd stepped away from being terrified about money, to feeling extremely comfortable, where even my current worries are things that seemed blessings before.